Crossing+the+river

He can’t recall without a shiver The day she left – he watched them cross that river He just stood there his mouth was gaping He called it running she called it escaping

He didn't know what he'd been thinking Like a fool he just stood there blinking All the while his ship was quickly sinking

He left everything just to chase her All day and night rehearsing when he’d face her A curse for every day they’d spent together A flood of tears for love he’d thought forever

He remembered things that she'd been saying Saying that she thought things needed changing He hadn't seen that all along it was him she'd been blaming

He didn't know if he could ever forgive her Didn’t know if he could cross that river Something told him that he'd have to change his ways forever ???

But I’ve heard time heals at last I’ve started hoping There’s life beyond this bitter empty groping

I couldn’t help thinking that she’d long deceived me How long she’d planned to pack her bags and leave me  Always saying something needed changing I couldn’t see that it was me she was blaming

God knows what stories she was spitting But I swear to god that there was never hitting I'd see our friends and wonder who’d believe me I sometimes wondered if it’ was worth it breathing

All the nights I’ve spent in hopeless mourning Thrashing shadows all around me taunting I have felt madness hurl me in kicking down the abyss yawning

Well I can see now the gulf she was naming Though at the time all I could hear was her raging It seems that all that’s gone before’s just ruins All that’s to come is just a dark confusion

I don’t know if I can ever forgive her Don’t know if I can ever cross that river But I’ve heard time heals at last I’ve started hoping There’s life beyond this bitter empty groping

I don’t know yet if the worst is over But I hope one day I might still get to know her To be apart but still somehow part of one another Looking back I might have seen it coming How she went on about something missing